Is anyone out there?
It’s been so long since I posted and yet it seems like just yesterday.
I’m not sure I even remember how to post anymore.
Since March I’ve sat down at the computer many times to write but it just didn’t happen. Maybe next week I’ll write. Maybe next month I’ll write because my heart won’t hurt so much. Well before you know its six months later and your heart still hurts.
Now please don’t call the authorities on me or send out the counselors.
I’ve got plenty to be happy and thankful for. My children and my husband make me laugh and smile every single day. Really its every single hour.
I’m here to say that its possible to move on but still have a tiny place in your heart that will always be sad. I think that’s the way it is for anyone who’s experienced a death. And for me it was the death of a dream, of a family member I had already placed deep into my heart.
Who knows what the future holds for us but I do want you to know that I’m here and experiencing life and its joys and I think I’m just about ready to start sharing with you again.
After all, how else am I going to remember that my daughter called my tummy squishy and my personal favorite lately…
Mom, take off your sunglasses.
I want to see all those crinkles by your eyes.
(Sigh) Do you want to know who put a lot of those crinkles there?
Yes you. With the help of your brothers.
Maybe you should put your sunglasses back on so we don’t see the crinkles.
Sounds like a plan.