Worries

So I’m on Day 4 of bed rest.

In just that short amount of time I’m pretty sure of a few things: I could compete on Iron Chef, I could be a bridal consultant on “Say Yes to the Dress,” and I could be a home designer. I feel in my 100 hours of tv watching I am now an expert in a lot of areas. Really no schooling is involved for a lot of these professions – just take a little bed rest in and you will have a new degree in no time.

I’m trying to relax, think positively, and pass the time as quickly as I know how (mostly in 30 min or 1 hour segments). I have also finished 2 books so my mind doesn’t go to complete mush.

Even with all of that I find thoughts of worry and anxiety creeping up.

I had worried about being pregnant in the middle of the summer. Now I worry I won’t be pregnant tomorrow.

I worried about my kids reaction to having another baby. Now I worry about my kids reaction if this doesn’t turn out as hoped.

I worried about having my youngest two so close. Now I worry about them never meeting.

But for right now, I’m going to try and push through the day and focus on what comforts me -my kids went off to school with smiles on their faces, my husband has been there for me every step of the way, and my friends have sent encouragement and prayers.

We will get through today together, worries and all.

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