On Wednesday morning I went to my first swim practice in more than a month.

Only a few people knew I was pregnant but I was still nervous about seeing those people for the first time.

I went anyway because I needed to get back to the pool.

Swimming when I was younger was just for fun and a way to help pay for college.

Swimming now is a way to socialize, get exercise, and most importantly a stress reliever.

Whenever something is going on in my life, I can always get away for a short time and swim.

It gives me a chance to think or not to think.

I always feel better after swimming.

The getting up at 4:40 am part is the only issue I dislike.

On the way to the pool I was a bit anxious and could feel myself tearing up.

I’m not supposed to be doing this. I’m supposed to be on bed rest.

I kept it together and walked onto the pool deck. Our coach welcomed me back and gave me a hug. One guy teasingly yelled, “Well, look who finally decided to show up.” He didn’t know so I just smiled and kept walking.

Thankfully the last lane was open so I was able to get in and swim in relative solitude. I wasn’t able to complete sets or go on intervals I’m use to but I know every little bit helps.